Fuck all this shit feelings. thank you for what you have done. I'm tired and I'm done getting my hopes up for nothing :)
I WAS A DREAMER BEFORE YOU WENT AND LET ME DOWN.
Hopeless and Speechless
My first love left me speechless and hopeless, I cried every day and never stop. I wanted to think of something else to get me distracted but it didn't work, that is what's always on my mind. I cried and cried, I was so hopeless, I didn't know what I did to him that makes him leave me without telling me anything and just ignoring me. That was on the month of December. I wish that I can have a lot of time and be happy since it was a holiday. But all I get was sadness and pain. I guess that time I didn't know what I should do but now I know and I've learned my lesson and this will be a good lesson for me in the future when it comes to something like this. Suddenly I met a guy he's one grade older than me that time. My friend made me get close to him and to get to know him more, so I did. That time I feel in love with him, but I bet that it's a wrong thing to do. Maybe he was just someone to help me forget the guy that left me speechless with wondering mind, never knowing what has happen. But at the same time he's not, he's very nice and caring. He is someone that really can make me feel better but the bad part is that he plays safe, he didn't want to disappoint me which is a good thing but at the same time he shouldn't do that or else it wouldn't be fun. Then suddenly he starts to chat again with me. It was confusing but maybe that time I still did have some feeling for him and I do still care. But now it's over and maybe I still do care but at least it's something that I can learn. :D
I know that it's hard to move on and let go of the person that we love so much, but it will make us hurt more. Moving on and forgetting takes a long time, but I'm sure that we can. Love makes us blind, but I'm sure that everyone who have to move on will eventually find a way to let go. Just cry as much as you can and let it all out, then build a bridge stay strong take control of yourself and don't let him/her bring you down, and get over it.